Friday, December 25, 2009

gift wrapping


is my favorite. it is an extension of creativity. birthdays, Christmas, or gifts just because. each has its own feel. a few years ago i started to theme my wrapping so that all of the gifts i give look alike (could be some sort of compulsive disorder). this also meant for me, no traditional wrapping paper, curling ribbon and sticker-tags. i must be creative. i must spend time on not only choosing the gifts i give, but also the way in which i present them. this year, my theme was to possess economy, being simplistic and beautiful at the same time. i think i achieved it. i bought a few yards of white paper at united art and education, then headed over to joann fabric for some burlap and white ribbon. although cost effective, there was quite a bit of time put into the wrapping of these gifts. i couldn't think of a better way to adhere the burlap than to use a needle and thread. so that's what i did and each wrapping was tailored specifically to each gift. obsessive, compulsive, yes. simplistically beautiful gifts as a result, yes. my work this Christmas is done. :)

i hope you are able to spend time with your family this Christmas season and enjoy the most beautiful gift of all, Christ, our salvation.

Merry Christmas!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

mrs. karen mcardle


you will be missed.

my metalcraft professor and her husband passed away this weekend in a car accident. i am in shock and full of mixed emotions. she was the epitome of metalcraft and ceramics. a beautiful jeweler and sculptor. many a talk had we of creative ideas, of ways to improve a process we were working with, of life. i will miss her greatly. passing her office, watching her drink green tea from a mug she had thrown on the wheel, talking to her husband in her office on speaker-phone, washing her dishes in the printmaking sink. thinking about you karen and the portion of my life you have affected.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

relief

ah.

deep breath in through the nose, hold for a few seconds, then release out through the mouth. repeat.

i just finished everything school related for this semester. whew! i must say that today was overwhelming. i woke up at 6 o'clock in the morning to start my studying (which lasted 5 hrs) then off to my first final of three for the day. after arriving home, i finished revising an art history paper and am calling it a night.

thank you Lord for your grace this week...as well as your peace (my eye didn't start it's annoying, uncontrollable twitching dance, very grateful).

you all might not care too much about all of that, but you should because it means regular posting for a whole month (hopefully)!!!

after a brash cleaning of my room...and the whole house for that matter...and a few other clarifying matters to attain to, i will be back in full force.

thanks for still being my friend.
michelle

Saturday, November 21, 2009



dear best proverbial friends,

i write you while sitting at my desk in my still-unfinished room (which i feel is impossible to be productive in), when i should be writing a well thought out, expertly crafted art history paper. thus far i have a rough thesis. that's it. no intro paragraph, no body, no conclusion, just a rough thesis that i will eventually tweak, and yet i write...

to you.

i miss you. i miss sharing my creativity with you.

after the holiday of turkey and cranberry sauce i will have one more week of classes, then finals...and then i will return in full creative force with imagery from this past semester. get excited. i am.

with that said, i should probably regreso (that's Spanish for return) to my oh so lengthy paper and stop procrastinating. yes. good idea.

thanks for waiting.

your bpf,
michelle

Saturday, October 31, 2009

recycling in the way of handmade books


hello my lovelies! so sorry for the lack of posting as of late. school is making me its captive.

i thought this would be a perfect time to introduce my little handmade recycled envelope books to you. i have been making them for a few years now. i started making them just for fun and as gifts, but am now starting to sell them. i entered one (shown below with the blue-green button) into the "green" show at Artlink over the summer and it sold before the show even opened...how encouraging! i have also had a few friends buy them as gifts to give others. and now comes the excitement...i will be selling a selection at Artlink during the Christmas shopping season! you should go check them out...even if you do not plan on buying anything. (also, i have three pieces in a small works show going on at Artlink right now that is worth checking out...a little self-promo on one's own blog never hurt anyone, right?)

anyway, i have been wanting to make more of these little books and once this opportunity arose, i thought, "how perfect!?!" so now, in the midst of a very large research paper for my high renaissance art history class, another paper for my 400 level philosophy of religion class (still do not know what i'm doing in there), and other projects, i'm trying to justify making time to work on my books...they do take quite a bit of time, believe it or not.

here's to a productive week in the form of recycled envelopes and handmade books!

michelle

Sunday, October 11, 2009

goodbye clutter, hello organizational system

two weeks ago i took down the beloved loft in my room. so many wonderful memories i will cherish from the 10 or so years i spent with it. memories of...night-time girl talk with my favorite sister...of repeatedly bumping my head...of fort building...of falling off before the railings were installed...of jumping off onto a pile of blankets and pillows (peter-pan, i think i can fly style)...of trials with sheet-changing...of multiple times of forgetting to turn off the light or set the alarm, causing the down-the-ladder, back-up-the-ladder again frustration...of many good times...and of terrible sleep.

"and of terrible sleep" being one of the reasons i took the plunge and coerced my father into helping me take the loft he built down. i'm 24. it's time for a "real" bed.

organizational space is the other main reason for taking down the beloved loft. I need space. i need a well organized space. i need a well organized space that inspires me to create and simplify at the same time. (lots of i need statements, i know...can't i be a little bit selfish about the room i call my own???) over the years i've come up with some ideas for organizing, but none of them have quite done the trick. non-practical maybe. but, i think i'm onto something now. the loft was just the first step in my "master plan."

step two...i thought it was to pick out a paint color, but when i approached jill, a friend and interior designer, she informed me that the paint color is the last thing to choose when re-doing a room. she explained, stating that if you pick out bed linens, fabrics and accents to the room, you want to be able to match the paint color to them, not try and match your paint color to your accessories, which has proven in the past to be most impossible. good call jill. after this week, she is going to come over and check out my space so we can brainstorm together. i love it!

so excited about my new, organized space to be.
a favorite website to check out: www.thecontainerstore.com
their inspirational spaces are amazing. a little pricey, but i'm just gathering ideas, and will eventually con my father into helping me build some custom shelving. oh so amazing.

(one of my favorite spaces from their website)

i hope this inspires you to go and organize/simplify your own space.
michelle

Sunday, October 4, 2009

leah rose





as i entered my folder of photographs on my computer to work on some images for my alternative photography class, i stumbled upon these photos of my niece which i took last january and could not help but share them with you. i clearly remember her being quite mischievous that day :) which is not really much different than any other day. enjoy!

michelle

Thursday, September 24, 2009

sneak peak

in my experimental photography class we're working with cyanotype, van dyke, and kalitype chemicals to create beautiful imagery. Part of the developing process for these techniques is exposing pre-coated paper/fabric along with a negative to UV light. Some rinsing and fixing is involved after the imagery has been exposed, a little drying, and a unique print is created.

Shooting for this project has been a bit slow and converting my digital photos into negatives has taken a bit of time as well, but I am now almost ready to start developing. Here is an example of one of the images i took and it's negative. finished products to come :)


Tuesday, September 15, 2009

sometimes i'm an old lady



i crochet. i also knit. to quite a few people, this = old lady. my friends and i have crocheting/knitting parties where we watch movies and drink tea while practicing our craft. sounds old lady, i know, but the objects we produce are beautiful. the time we spend with each other is lovely. the gifts we give are greatly appreciated.

i just finished crocheting my first bag. quite a feat, since i usually stick to blankets and scarves which are hard to mess up. this particular rust-colored bag went to my friend kate yesterday for her birthday. pretty sure i will be making more, due to requests.

old lady? maybe. but mostly just another way for me to express my creativity.

michelle

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

simplicity in europe

i miss europe. a whole lot. wishing i could just pick up and go whenever. but i can't. i have school: papers, projects, readings, more projects; work; random side projects i pretend i have time for; family to hug and kiss; friends to get coffee with; and other random occurrences that seem to make their way into my little black book, disabling me to leave on a whim. oh, and there's that money thing. meh.

so, this is me de-stressing, simplifying with some images i took of mr. eiffel tower + one of me atop the massive iron structure. the feel of europe, the mere thought of being there, puts me at ease. although the majority of you faithful readers have not seen my photo montage of all things europe, i look at it frequently...for a little bit of peace amidst chaos. to remember. to simplify.

encouraging you to do the same,
michelle












Sunday, August 30, 2009

'all things femenine'

last semester, the majority of my work dealt with the domestic and feminine realm. most of my work seems to gravitate towards that area. here are a few untouched digital images that were going to be used for a project, but i later decided to use film instead (you can see two of those images at Club Soda for another week or so). many thanks to my lovely hand model, jessica. you rock the domestic/feminine realm. let me know what you think of the images...i have many more.

michelle


Thursday, August 27, 2009

'Andrea's Adventures'


a loveliest of friends is leaving for Neuchatel, Switzerland today. this little step she has waited nearly three years for, in addition to another seven, in addition to at least another five, but officially three. ever since i have known her, she has been in this state of waiting. knowing that she never quite 'fit' here, waiting for release, direction, affirmation, and support, that 'feels like home' kind of place.

i've learned a lot over the past few years from andrea. two words specifically she helped me better understand: patience & simplicity. in this time of waiting, she has been nothing but patient. even when expressing thoughts and feelings to a close friend, she could have never been misconstrued as being impatient. simplicity comes from her life starting as an mk (missionary kid) in the D.R. always using what you have, not worrying about what you don't have. enjoying the simple things in life. a good cup of tea, a piece of DeBrand dark chocolate, a little flower beckoning attention, a postcard sent via snail mail.

i have high hopes of being able to visit andrea while in Europe (as you know it's one of my favorite places to be). if not, Africa does sound pretty adventurous (where she'll be working for a few years). if nothing else, i'll be looking forward to her postcards and emails as we continue our friendship over the span of the sea. i'm already thinking of interesting things to send her, not in a box, but open postage. get excited.

these next photos are from our last breakfast together in her empty (almost-empty) apartment. it was a lovely morning.




missing you already andrea,
michelle




Wednesday, August 26, 2009

my nephew turns one




HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY BABY BOY!!!

this calls for a birthday hiku.

my cutest little man-boy
you are to me [love]
your smile, Blue Eyes, full [life]

your favorite aunt,
michelle

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

to school i return









day two of the fall semester almost over and i'm down for the count. more overwhelmed than anticipated, currently naming it syllabus shock. let's take a look at the schedule.

monday/wednesday:
work 8:30-12 noon
experimental photography 2-3:45
work out
zone out
study

tuesday/thrusday:
work out
study
philosophy of religion 2-3:15 (how did i get myself into a 400 level philosophy course???)
high renaissance art history 3:30-4:45
4th level printmaking 6:30-9:15
zone out

friday:
work 9-5

saturday:
work 9-3 (alternating)

sunday:
corporate worship in the am
work out
study
zone out

*schedule subject to change...and probably will change due to the fact that as the semester progresses, so does my level of stress and all of the projects/papers that need to be completed. working out has been the first thing to go in the past...this semester i'm going to try my best to make it to the gym about three times a week. exercise = endorphins = less stress & more productivity.

my schedule may look simple on paper, but i have actually left out quite a bit that happens in the course of a week. multiple meetings at school, Artlink, etc., coffee dates i try to squeeze in with friends (so they don't think i hate them and also for my sanity), time spent with family, time putting together work for upcoming shows, openings i'm required to attend, openings i'm not required to attend, time spent reeling film and processing photos in the darkroom, brainstorming for projects, babysitting the niece and nephew (for my baby fix & their parent's sanity), lending a hand when someone needs it, lending an ear when someone needs it, baking for stress relief as well as for my taste buds, taking/editing photos for people...

when i'm in school, it is usually a tough time for me. i like you. i want to spend time with you, and yet i have so many other things demanding my time and energy. this semester and next are going to be particularly challenging, as they are the last of my studio art degree. i must create cohesive work. good...no, Amazing work. kind of puts the pressure on. so, do bear with me as i will be trying very hard to balance everything.

once my projects get underway, i'll be posting images and what-nots for your viewing pleasure.

for now, enjoy the fact that you are currently not in school.

until you return again,
michelle

Friday, August 21, 2009

lunch break!


i love a good lunch break...especially those consisting of sushi, tea and a good read.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

on summer reading...

during the school year, i don't allow myself to read books for leisure. it's a big no-no. mostly because i should be studying art history (high renaissance this semester!) or reading for some terrible gen-ed class which requires way too much reading, or tediously working on the many projects due (my address really should be changed to that of the art building). school=no reading for fun.

so, when crafting my rather large "summer to-do list," i include a book list. i have lots of unread books on my shelf...mostly due to school, which are patiently waiting as they occasionally get pulled off the shelf, flipped through, a paragraph or two read to pique my interest, and begrudgingly placed back on the shelf after a tinge of guilt has hit me for even picking up the book in the first place. back to summer. after i got back from Europe this year, i went to the library to borrow a few movies and walked past their new fiction section. The Way Through Doors by Jesse Ball jumped into my arms and became my first summer read. poor books on shelf at home.
It was a most interesting read, written in prose. a small excerpt:

"First, you go out into the world. This is not a simple matter of going outside one's door. No, that is simply going out. That's what one does when one is on the way to the store to buy a loaf of bread, some cheese, and a bottle of wine. When one goes out into the world, one is shedding preconceptions of past paths and ideas of past paths, and trying to move freely through an unsubstantiated and new geography. So, one goes out into the world, and then one wanders about."

summer reads 2, 3, and 4 are being read simultaneously. not purposefully, it just happens sometimes. Recollections of a Hamburger: Growing up German 1941-1962 by Christel Behnke Gehlert is the second book i picked up (and had to dust off) this summer. this particular book has only been in the waiting line for about a year, seeing as i bought a signed copy from the author last summer. it has been a very interesting, eye-opening read. i'm so far removed from the situation/s the author describes, but i find it lovely. not very eloquent of a writer, but i've found lots of little gems so far in her writing. The first paragraph reads as follows:

"The year was 1941. Germany was stretching itself to its limits, starting a war and killing many people. Still, this is not a story about Germany at war but rather about how my family and I coped with the enormity of events that befell us. There are lots of history books about the war, but this is my personal story about my twenty years in Germany."

i'm almost halfway through Recollections of a Hamburger. this book is much more enjoyed when i am able to sit down without distraction and read at least a chapter at a time.

the third summer read is Here's to Hindsight by Tara Leigh Cobble. this book made it's way into my arms and to the front of the line when i found it for 75% off at Anchor Room. i first heard about this book two years ago and thought, "i think i would really like that book." i saved an add for the book out of a magazine that i've stumbled upon at random intervals, so when i found the book...and for only a couple of bucks, you can imagine my excitement. and i really am enjoying it. the author's writing is beautiful, exposing and expressing herself to her readers.

"I've learned and grown up so much from the things I was taught in the blank white walls of a strict Christian academy and in the pews of an independent, fundamentalist Baptist church. But i've always challenged (and changed) many of the beliefs I grew up with. The school we attended was very small, despite the fact that it encompassed all grades. Things that were pretty much unacceptable there included shorts, pants (for women), dancing, or any mention of going to the movies. When I switched to public school, I was shocked to find out that some of the kids had cable television because, according to my former teachers at the private school, cable television was "nothing but filth." I honestly believed though that HBO stood for "Hell's Box Office" until I saw an ad for it on television when I was twelve."

the fourth book i have started to read this summer just recently came in the mail. The Valley of Vision: A collection of Puritan Prayers & Devotions is a lovely little book. my friend Pierce first quoted an excerpt from it last semester. it was beautiful and poetic and i loved it. so when i ordered a few books for class online, this book somehow found its way to my house. i'm sure this particular book will take a while to get through, as each prayer requires an initial read, some thought and subsequent reads/meditation after that. No need to rush this book.

The Valley of Vision


LORD, HIGH AND HOLY, MEEK AND LOWLY,
Thou hast brought me to the valley of vision,

where i live in the depths but see thee in the heights;

hemmed in by mountains of sin I behold thy glory.

Let me learn by paradox
that t
he way down is the way up,
that to be low is to be high,

that the broken heart is the healed heart,

that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit,

that the repenting soul is the victorious soul,

that to have nothing is to possess all,

that to bear the cross is to wear the crown,

that to give is to receive,
that the valley is the place of vision.

Lord, in the daytime stars can be seen from deepest wells,

and the deeper the wells the brighter thy stars shine;

Let me find thy light in my darkness,

thy life in my death,
thy joy in my sorrow,

thy grace in my sin,

thy riches in my poverty,

thy glory in my valley.


so, as school nears and my summer reading privileges dissipate, i am glad for the reading that i have been able to soak up thus far. Here's to Hindsight will continue to be a lunch break read, The Valley of Vision a portion of my devotional time. although a long post, i hope you found some enjoyment in it. the next i promise will be one of more 'creativity' and artistic imagery.

until you read again,
michelle

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

i do not photograph flowers...

Fort Wayne has this thing, this unhealthy liking towards art containing flowers.
  • "bugs on flowers"
  • "babies with/on/in flowers"
  • "flowers in vases on tables"
  • "bugs on flowers with babies"
the list and combination continues. and so does the making of this cliche [fort wayne] art.

why do i write such harsh words about your beloved flowers? i must hate flowers, and stomp on them/squish them every chance i get. but the reality is, i love flowers. love the way they look, smell and feel. the way that a small lonely yellow flower wanting to be picked and appreciated can brighten the day, or how a bucket of twenty variations of flowers picked by a friend can make many rooms happy. i love flowers. this thing, this unhealthy liking towards art containing flowers is the problem. not that all art involving flowers is bad or that every photograph of a flower has no value. the truth is that i'm an artist living in fort wayne, trying to sell my own art, and all people want to buy are images of "bugs on flowers." how sad. the lack of content hurts my photographic heart. the market here to sell art is so small and specific and suffocating.

so what does an artist who feels led to create imagery with content other than flowers do? leave fort wayne? hold the mayor hostage until he passes a law that everyone must buy michelle diller's artwork instead of bugs on flowers?...interesting idea. as i and fellow artists facing the same problem trudge onward, trying to break down the barriers of this silly market, i encourage you to buy local. buy good, local, content-filled art. yes.

and to those of you who stopped reading paragraphs ago because i insulted you, no need to go home, feeling ashamed of your flower art purchases. don't tear them off the wall in a fury. i'm just on my soap box...getting down now. and although i sometimes even despise photos of flowers, they can sometimes be beautiful and lovely and have their own special meaning to you.

so here are a few of my own photographs of flowers, although "i do not photograph flowers," taken in Giverny, France at Monet's Gardens.





until you read again,
michelle

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Hello.

A fresh space to create. I like it. I don't like the lack of customization involved in creating a free blog, but I like the space nonetheless.

And now, welcome. I plan on using this space for my thoughts as well as to share photos and current projects I'm working on. My hopes are that this proverbial space is one of creativity and interaction with friends, family and fellow artists.

And now, enjoy.